Ive been thinking alot these days. Sigh maybe i should just stay single from the start.

I feel a mixed of emotions running in me. And i know nothing can do best but turning up to my blog, writing every single thing i feel when i cant seem to talk to anyone. For the past few months, ive been avoiding to spill all my emotions. I strongly believe that time will heal things. But no. you'll be triggered with memories, memories you had tried to wipe off because its too painful to recall. You'll find yourself tearing for no apparent reason. And nobody knows how pathetic it is, nobody but yourself.

Ive learn't so much this very year. I never knew i'm stronger than i've expected. I knew i was too naive for this world. I've given too much trust to people i shouldn't. I knew that everything is just possible and sometimes it kinda shocks you. Yet, this is life. Anything may happen, it seems unreal but the fact is it is reality. Yet, i'm glad it happened or i might still be living in my innocent and gullible mindset.

Sigh. It was never easy to get over bad memories. You keep recalling them. But so what? What can you do about it? What happened isn't reversible. And i believe everything happened for a reason although actions you make might change the future. but hey you can't stop what others might do to you. Just accept it although its not desirable. Make sure no one else does the same shit to you again.

Because not everyone will do good to you if you do. Sucks.

And love is just a feeling. True love is completely absurd. And beneath the stains of time, feelings disappear, there is no love.

Making choices is never easy. Either way another gets hurt. How can i not be undecisive? :(

I CANT SLEEPPPPPPPPPPP.

Its so gloomy especially when it comes to the people around me. When i looked at them break down, im just feel terribly useless. The only thing i can do is give them a hug, comfort them with words and reassure them that things will change for the better. Are those only im capable of? I dont know. But the only thing i know is that im always here as a friend.

And to the boyfriend of mine, its been a year and nine months. And im glad that i have you. I will always be your potato. I love you :)

Its halloween night, and im here studying my ass off for finals. how pathetic eh :/ 16 more days to go.

Backkkkkkkkkk

Time to update my blog. *wipes away the dust. Alright finals is like 2 weeks away. sigh. i feel much better after revising two chapter of accounts. going to study during the weekends alone, roommate went back. i hate being alone. On a brighter side, its only gonna be 2 days :)